just checkin' in...

Holy shit - it's really been a long time since I've been out here... last post was on Christmas Eve... what can I say - sometimes it's good to get away from this blog... So let's see... Woman front is the same ol', same ol'... well, actually it is different - but the results are the same: still a bachelor yet to find a woman who really captures my attention. Might as well kick the horse while he's down and let ya know that dating still sucks. Oh my goodness, such trivial dilemas all the time it seems... Am I that blaise about everything... am I that passive now? Maybe I'm so attentive to signs of stressful situations that at the slightest signal, I choose to not get involved further? Let me explain... ...or ramble I should say... Dating so revolvant... so unstable. I've spent time with a few different woman over the last few months. A couple dates with nothing more than an innocent kiss at the end of the night and one pretty intense evening. The latter was pretty hot... definitely a good night. But the unbelievable spin that came afterward with all the "what does this mean now" was so far from what I wanted to deal with. What does it mean?? What does what mean?? It means we had sex? I wasn't opposed to spending more time with her, but the time we did spend - we talked about what that night meant... YIKES!! If that's all we could talk about, maybe we should just take some time away.... ay-yi-yi!! The last woman I spent some time with was really cool. Very relaxed... she's divorced too and that helps understand things others might not without having to get into details about each other's personal situation. Yeah just know... that is of course if they're at peace with what went down. Not much worse than being on a date and learning she's still all jammed up with anger and bitterness... that's the worst. Then again, if they don't talk about it at all, ya know there's probably even more damage goin' on. At least the bitter ones are getting it out, and things get better. The ones that hold it all in - that can be dangerous too... Yet when out this past weekend, I wasn't thinking about any of that shit when we were together - and that's the most important. So enjoyable you don't have to think. There's a comfort there... it's relaxing... very intriguing... That's good chemistry and that's actually pretty sexy... Nothing more than good conversation, laughing and a hug and kiss goodnight. So who knows - I'll see her again this weekend and we'll see what happens. But when you've been dating in your 30's long enough - you know better than to get any hopes up real early... it was only one night. But it sure was alot of fun... Did I mention how many people try to set me up... oh man is that just awful when someone says "Hey are you single?... cause I know this girl..." AAAAHHH!!! That scoreboard reads 0-for-5 in that department with no rush to attempt a 6th set-up. Maybe I've been watching my Seinfeld DVD's too much and I'm just your stereo-typical shallow man - but looks friggin' count man, what can I say? All right - I'm tired...