BACHELOR MOMENT: ...alright Cupid, I'm sorry... I've cooled off...

Ah... Valentine's Day wasn't that bad this year. It's less annoying each post-divorce year, so that's kinda a good thing, right? I just start thinking too damn much on this day...

Talk about a bias holiday. What are all us loser ass single people s'pose to do on this day? Ah well, the Trifecta of Miserable Holidays is now over. I gave my thanks, got the usual bachelor standards for Christmas and got stood up for a Valentine's Day lunch g to round it out. Guess it could be worse...

That damn divorce and all it's lessons. I'm almost tired of them. I mean, I value them immensely, but sometimes I wish I could just be naive and happy and stupid again. It just seemed less complicated. I guess I just need a woman... I mean a good woman... who makes me get all giddy and stupid... and not even care how dorky I may act because of it. I need someone to spark my excitement cuz ...man, am I gettin' bored.

Ya know, about 10 years ago I was living in a bachelor pad with 2 of my boys when very suddenly and unexpectedly, I fell hard for this woman. And while I was smack-dab in the middle of those first butterfly days, I was home alone one afternoon and had the tunes blaring. I believe the song was a dance version of "Sexual Healing"... ya know, the one with the reggae skattin'... Anyway, not the most masculine song for the bachelor pad, but I was dancing on the couch regardless, turnin' the mutha OUT, I tell ya!

I was in such a great mood that when my roommate Jay came home, I turned around admist some sad white man move I probably made up on the fly - he was standing in the doorway saying "Dude.... what the hell are you doin?" Ha, if that happened today, I'd probably freeze in humiliation. But that day, all I could say was:

"Fuck it man, I'm in love!!"... with the biggest smile on my face. I might have even kept dancing there a little bit if I remember correctly. It was such a carefree, confident and genuinely happy moment.

That ain't too much to hope for, is it??